Journal of a follower of Christ

As look at the sky tonight. The sun shining through dark rain clouds. I was reminded of the hand God plays in my life. How faith and a relationship is the main priorities to being a follower of Jesus. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my faith. I question why God puts these trails and storms in our lives. I have been asking myself these more and more recently because my family is closing a huge chapter in our lives. We are moving on in our adoption journey we are adopting a little girl name Lucy from China, since Russia has closed their doors. It is one of the hardest things because in my head with Artem God promised me I would have him. But he didn't tell me what form I would have him. I have him alright he has stolen a special part in my heart with out trying he will always be my little brother whether he is here with me or in Russia. But I do know why we go through trials and storms. It is to strengthen us in our faith. Do I always like it no, but is it necessary for growth yes. As I look at Lucy I love her already as well. She will never take my bubbas place but she will be here. As we begin this journey again I'm asking for you guys to grab my hand as I grab Gods and walk on this journey. For help to believe in the best of things, like I do. To know where my strength and light lie. The sky also reminds me to be a constant light and if I don't become stronger and grow then how am I to be one to others. I leave you with one last reminder nothing happens for nothing. There is always a reason even if we don't see it right away. As my sister Kelsee loves to tell me Phil. 4:13. ❤️ As I walk and continue with God i have a reason to be happy.