Last night I was awoken by someone blasting their horn then followed by what sounded like gunshots. I went to find my RA and found out my side of the hall had awaken. We had called the police and were trying to figure out what was going on. So at 3:00 am those that had gathered decided to pray. It was then that I realized that although I go to a Christian University that there is evil that takes place. Your first instinct for most who are sheltered or have never experienced it before is fear. This made me realize do we as Christians often live our lives in fear. Do we not talk or share the gospel with someone because we are scared of them. Scared of rejection, scared of whatever it is. My future job is not a guaranteed safety. Those who I want to work with could do a lot of things. I want to work with drug addicts, or any addictions and those who have been victims of human trafficking. But after this had happened, prayer and thought I have come to the terms. That sometimes I live my life in fear of a lot of things. So if I live in fear am I really living or am I just going through the motions. Some days I feel like I am just going through the motions and I have decided that is not what I want to do. I have decided it is time to fully rely on God, he is my protector and comforter. He is my Abba. I have come to terms that if I live in fear that is what will always be holding me back from what he has called me to do. There is evil in this world do realize this but their is also good in this world. Our world is becoming a dark place and that can be frightening but my place is not here on this earth. This is not my home, heaven is and that is where I find happiness and peace is in that knowledge. It is where I realize my full potential is when I stop being afraid of the world around me. Because whatever happens in this life God has already planned it. So I hope that comforts you, I do not understand or do I want to begin to try and fathom what plans God has for me or for you. But I do know that I have a God who has called me to not live life in fear, and to trust him. Whether you believe this or not it is your choice. But I do know that fear is not for the faint of heart, but we do have a mighty God. So live your life and calling out. Please live each moment to its fullest.
