Ready,set,test?!?

I've come to learn that when you say something or pray about it God is going to put you to the fire. I moved back into the dorms August 9th our halls theme is security and serenity in Jesus. We are so punny that our is harder fourtress. But after leadership week started I got a call at 6:00 Tuesday night telling me that my papa was not doing well. He was unresponsive and unconscious they took him to ICU. That call shook my life. I had no idea what to feel or do. The week continued with leadership activities. Well Friday I got a call saying that he was not going to get any better. So I was playing on flying with my dad to attend the things I thought I needed to take on. Turns out God had other plans. He wanted me to look to him for comfort and security and that love only he could give. So I have cried my heart out but grieving will still take time. My papa finally went to rest in paradise on Tuesday the 18th of August between 7-7:30 pm. I learned that I am very much like my papa and great-papa we have huge hearts and are kind to all we meet. We show love and treat them nicely. It is hard to lose someone so close yet so far away. I know he loved me and I love him. He will always have a piece of my heart. I wish I could of talked to that amazing man today on my 20th birthday and have him say it to me. He never forgot. He will never see me get married or have children. His spirit will be in my heart and my husband and children will know about him. But that amazing man's passing was a test of mine. It was to show me where my rest and fortress really is. It isn't on this earth and the person who gives it to me is not easy to follow. You will be tempted and tried. You will fight your flesh and so many other things. At the end of the day God has never left my side he lets me cry out to him time and time again. And he says welcome back my child come into my arms. If that isn't true love and sacrifice then I don't know what is. My savior gave his only son for me. My sins were the nails in his hands. Your sins where the nails in his hands. Our sins are what held him up there. And still he said father forgive them for they do not know. Wow!!!! Mind blown!!! That's all I have for you today. You will be tested at some point in your life whether you believe that or not. Don't wait to ask Jesus in your heart because you never know when your last breath will be ❤️