Journal of a follower of Christ

As look at the sky tonight. The sun shining through dark rain clouds. I was reminded of the hand God plays in my life. How faith and a relationship is the main priorities to being a follower of Jesus. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my faith. I question why God puts these trails and storms in our lives. I have been asking myself these more and more recently because my family is closing a huge chapter in our lives. We are moving on in our adoption journey we are adopting a little girl name Lucy from China, since Russia has closed their doors. It is one of the hardest things because in my head with Artem God promised me I would have him. But he didn't tell me what form I would have him. I have him alright he has stolen a special part in my heart with out trying he will always be my little brother whether he is here with me or in Russia. But I do know why we go through trials and storms. It is to strengthen us in our faith. Do I always like it no, but is it necessary for growth yes. As I look at Lucy I love her already as well. She will never take my bubbas place but she will be here. As we begin this journey again I'm asking for you guys to grab my hand as I grab Gods and walk on this journey. For help to believe in the best of things, like I do. To know where my strength and light lie. The sky also reminds me to be a constant light and if I don't become stronger and grow then how am I to be one to others. I leave you with one last reminder nothing happens for nothing. There is always a reason even if we don't see it right away. As my sister Kelsee loves to tell me Phil. 4:13. ❤️ As I walk and continue with God i have a reason to be happy.

The world

My friend wrote this.This world...heh. This world was never meant to be what it is. We made it this way. WE made choices. WE knew right from wrong. WE knew wether or not one action would hurt someone or help them. WE knew wether or not the words coming out of our mouths were putdowns or encouragements. WE KNEW! WE KNOW....we know and yet everyday our choices almost never change. Our actions never change. God foreknew us and because he foreknew us he also predestined us in the image of his son. Those he predestined he also called and those he called he also justified and those he justified he also glorified. Did you hear that? GOD FOREKNEW! That man in jail who killed an innocent person, God foreknew, God predestined him to do amazing things in his name. But that man made a choice. That homeless women holding a sign in a parking lot who spent all her money on drugs, lost her kids and her husband, yeah, God foreknew, he predestined her for greatness, but she made a choice. That child with a gun who wants to take their own life because everything is to hard and they just can't handle it anymore. God foreknew, God predestined them to be a child of the one true king. But they are making a choice. Everyday we make choices and his a domino effect in the world. One thing leads to another and to another changing everyone's lives and experiences. I ponder everyday on what I have done in life and how it could possibly effect others. I think before I act, I think before I speak because wether we realize it or not we influence each other more then anything else in life does. And more often then less it's man to man, you don't see a dog or a building or a car or a tree influencing someone to kill someone or themselves or do drugs it's all man. The very humans of this world that satan try's to run and control. It's the very humans of this world that God foreknew,God predestined,God called,God justified, and God will glorify in his right timing along with Humans right choices to change. So many people question. "If God is so mighty and real then why does he allow people to do such horrible things?" BECAUSE GOD GAVE US A CHOICE! You just have to choose the right one...... " for I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord. " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you" declares the Lord. " and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you" declares the Lord. "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile." God forgives! And he wants you. So those in jail, those homeless and addicted, those without hope, those who are weary, those with hurt and pain so great you just can't bear it. Make a NEW CHOICE, a choice to seek God and he will bring you from your pain, bring you from captivities, bring you from your slavery, from your hurt, your addictions, from your mistakes and he will glorify you in his name for he has foreknew your capability and predestined you to use it at some point in your life as long as you make the choice to let him. So everyone, what is your choice today?